Small Things around
6:30 am, 29 June’03, early morning of Mansoon. Dark clouds outside when I was traveling for home in train from Bangalore to Ujjain. Quite a pleasant weather, good enough to make a farmer smile. I was sitting on the TT seat near door of compartment of my bogie looking at the moist green surroundings out of window. A teenage Beggar came near me, he was disabled, no legs, filthy teeth, torn dirty clothes. He could only speak by sign language. And he could just able to cripple on floor by hands. What else he could miss? Enough to make me millions times sad than I am currently if I was at his place. Now see what he did after coming near me. He came near me, raised his finger up towards dark clouds, then towards the land and started to smile and laugh just too cute with no stinginess. I wondered first why is he smiling and why does not he behave like other beggars with withered face to get mercy and a coin? I saw towards green fields outside and then could understand that he is smiling because maize fields had started to rise up on the land. They were looking like lush green grass. Surely he was dreaming about the fields after couple of months when all those maize fields will be on their peak and would be playing with breeze all around. Some how by his gesture and posture I could peeped in his dreams where he might have also thinking about his father harvesting those maize fields. Believe me those smiles on his face really gave me amazing satisfaction about the life. He was enjoying every moment he was breathing at that time entirely without at all thinking about all those inabilities of his body. I always believe that its more sad for you if you are thinking of your own disabilities than thinking bad or just casual about others
or just being selfish. Its sad indeed to think our own negativity. But that boy had overcome it and that too by such a small thing. It’s a wonder for me. Probably its difficult as well to describe the kind of relaxation I had at that time. But yes, It was first time when I was happy after looking at a disabled person. Then he asked for my walkman and made a pity face as songs were in English after listening for a while. He gave me my walkman back with smile and move forward to beg money like other beggar boys in train. Is it difficult for us to be happy by so many small incidents around us in daily life by avoiding burden we are carrying in our head of all sorts of disabilities? Aren’t we running away from our own true nature?….of being happy.
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Something I want to share with all you guys. It’s a small but unforgettable incident of my life I guess. Something I have read in books for millions time but probably first time practically it made a difference. Something which I do feel shame about as well… sometime. If I give you 100 marbles and take one marble back. You will surely think of the one marble that you missed but not of the 99 marbles that you already have. The obvious nature of Human Beings. Crying for things that we don’t have and forgetting the things we are enjoying since years.
Early cloudy morning it was, watching green outside.
I was in the train, going home, loving rhythmic ride,
Its a shame that I was calm, and feeling very down,
I was alone, thoughts growing, weakness I just found.
In between I was smiling too, nature whispered to me,
Smile o dear and look outside, just try to think healthy,
But I was sad, turned down smiles, wish if I could cry,
But nature was determined too, to make me satisfy.
Then I saw a little beggar boy , he came and sat near door,
Torn clothes, no legs, couldn't speak, and looked so poor,
He turned up his little finger, pointing clouds so dark,
Smiling cute and laughing big, with no lament mark,
I wonder that how can he, enjoy those rainy days,
Sorrow he could carry along, for almost millions ways.
But he ignored all illness, he was having since years,
He smiled for flourishing fields, smile defeated tears.
Biggest thing what I observed, I could feel difference,
I was sad and felt pity, now felt relax and patience,
I amazed to see poor boy, enjoyed such a tiny thing,
He would be a beggar but, I see the happiest king,
I forgot all the burden I was, carrying in my mind,
I thought I can see around, at least I am not blind.
Its nature that we feel envy, everything we miss,
Never thank for things we have, sign of losing wit,
Happiness is the state of mind, it need attitude,
Feel happy for things you have, show your gratitude.
